Saturday, January 30, 2010

Embracing Death’s Woes


Frozen inside still I
Bleed from your broken kiss,
A touch of ice embraces me
With a soaring sting of
An eternal affliction,
This forsaken truth
You’ve embraced charges
With a rage of lifelessness,
I ‘m left powerless
With the tears that are
The fragments of my soul;
My fortitude is forever gone.

When love stands still
Life is lost and grief is gained
When a man cries,
It’s all because it hurts
His soul’s core to touch
A love he once had,
His tears will force the
Sunflower face towards
The moonshine
Her voice will be captive of
The ocean’s pressure
And she’ll die like the waves
Of her emotions…

This immortal emptiness
Nurtures its ruins when night
Overcame life’s splendor
And every endeavor
I took to keep us away
From sorrow’s claws…
In this endless soreness
Bore our futile child.
These Hallow feelings
Will be my only foe.

These tears cannot reveal
My angst of numbness
That took me captive
When your life was denied:
My will to be departed with you,
This shame of life pierced through
My hopes like a lance of knights
And stole my lone essence,
Now I’ve got to face
This war of woes on my on.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Not There Anymore


To hold you once more
I’d give my soul and
I can never let go,
If my heart can sing
It’d be a song of life
To kill this death of hope.
Every day I pray for you to
Lead me into the star gate
Of your paradise
Where nothing can hurt me
And evil stings not my soul anymore.
I lost me when you lost you…
Who will dry my heart’s tears?
Who will chase the demons
From my nightmares? Who?
With this cry, I wish
For your rupture,
I feel like a lost soldier fighting
A war with the gods of man’s making,
My weapons kill the innocence of life
My woes will jeer at me,
These wounds will not heal,
This grief will kill,
Till I kneel to its rule,
My heart will forever
Bleed with every little
Love I’m left with…
But why mother?

A Cry of Shame


Keep my tears safe
In your hands of healing,
My chaste soul morns
The loss of life’s meaning,
My heart will drown
In the pain of this façade,
My love, please kiss the poison
From my sunken veins
And heal the scarred tissue
Of my depleted mind.
Now and forever
Hold me close
To your heart’s fatal desire
Let me out of this sorrow
A stain of emptiness gnaws
My emotions whenever you
Walk away from my heart.

This infinite affliction
Is all that I have:
Every heart beat
Brings me closer to
This unending flame
Of a love’s death.
I walk with my head
Down ashamed of all
That I became when we embraced
This disgraceful life.
Let my tear warm
Your heart, my cry will last
Till you heal,
My broken hope is sunk
By the darkness of our existence.


Now my eyes are cleansed
By the bloodshed of this
Untold spiritual misfortune
Here in the darkness
The fright of torment
Will leave me for dead
This shameful fate
Will feast upon my
Last clout‘s cry to rise
Above this doom’s will.
My solemn wreath is
The only prize I deserve
For this traitorous love
My heart has fallen victim to.
I’ll remain without a name
Without no pain to tame
My empathy will wilt with shame
And die softly in a wrath
Of that which angels fear.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Kissing Hope Away


I open a chapter of my life
Its blank pages stall my hope,
My heart’s ink is dry
Like a lie its promise is broken,
In this rain pain shall reign
I’ll kiss it
I’ll learn to love it
And I’ll bond with its madness
Till my hope is no more

As I walk on the beach of the dead,
My footprints in its wrath fade like
The blank chapters
Of a life I thought I lived
If I cry I’ll fall
If I don’t try I’ll pall
Beneath the essence of my being.
Broken between these mortal struggles
If I could break these chains
To free my spirit,
To give my soul a last hope,
To breathe the love of man,
I could…

The stars in the night sky
Sparkle tears of bliss
They twinkle like eyes
Of a dying galaxy
Tonight the skies have no
Answers, no wish to grant
And no soul to save
This night will be it
The moment of truth
But it’ll come when
I’m asleep…dreaming cherry
Tears of my wrecked soul.

Why I Smile


Like blossoming lilies in the swamp
I live with life’s untouched pleasures
And fine leisure’s harmony,
Like the bees, I taste the honey
I make as I fly within its utter glee,
Filled with life’s glory
Earth’s bliss will bless me with more
Of this foray’s enchantment,
This craze will cleanse my worries,
A simple gaze into my frown
Breaks my hollow woes
And whisks my hazy days away,
Again the sun will shine
And the darkness of my heart
Will be no more…
The gloomy thoughts I hold
Will burn in the sun
My joyful tears will water the yellow daisies
Of my spirit’s mazy garden of truth,
My immortal seeds of bliss
Will grow till they touch the sky
Of my mind’s celibacy of sorrowfulness.
Today I’ll smile like yesterday
Because I have no reason not to.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

This I Ask


My lord when I need you
My heart calls out for you
Iam your vessel, teach me
How to fly and sing like the angels
Show me the way and tell me everything
Will be fine, like it was when I was in mother’s
Womb, when nothing else but love mattered.

Hold me close to you
And heal my wounded heart
Show me the essence of man’s
Purpose in this world…
Lord take me away from this pain
This desire to be where you are
Show me life’s secrets.
Today I stand powerless
Only you can see the seethe
I hold, only you can understand
Me completely without any judgment.

As I close my eyes
I pray for you to light
My future with your lantern
Of the sanctified candles you hold
Anoint me with your tears of healing
Keep me away from the world’s evil
And forever I’ll live to love you
My dear lord.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Beyond Pain


I died long before time killed me
When life took my dreams…I died
If I die will they cry?
Will the day bawl to my fall?
Does life even care?
Time will not heal
Time will kill
There’s no time left for me
This reality should be one
With my last heart beat
As I hold this tragedy
In the valley
Of my own hands
They are broken
They are scared
From the wars of man
Whose intent is to please
His ego’s desire for power:
Does he not know that power
Is an entity of his mind?
Does he not feel the pain
Of my burning tears?
Will he ever know how it
Feels to be killed by the light?
This undecided life I live
Is here to haunt me
To maul me
To break me into bits
Of rabble which will dissolve
In the twinge of night.
My affliction will convene
With its unwitting scars
And forlorn delicacy.
When pain came to close
I died then, with my hopes I died