The Silent Words

22-Apr 13:18

What I did not say haunts me,
The thoughts that weren’t turned into
Words are slowly killing me,
It’s too late now, I’ve lost the chance
To be who I really Iam,

Guilt and desperation captivate my mind
As I lay here dying all alone,
Thoughts of you give me strength to take
Another breath,
But what I didn’t say is reason enough
For your hating me,

I feared you'd hate me if I had said
What my heart felt, I guess I didn’t trust my
Emotions because my heart isn’t smart,

What I didn’t say is the reason I can’t
Rest in peace, I messed up, I should have told
You, but the fear wouldn’t let me,
I believed them when they said it is a man’s
Weakness to fall in love,

My departure came abruptly, I dearly
Regret not loving you, Please forgive me?
Could you have loved me back?
I guess I’ll never know,

You shouldn’t shade your tears for me,
You will hurt me instead, Its not like you
Loved me,
All I beg of you is to erase me from your
World of splendor,

What I didn’t say made me hate you
Because of what you did to me,
The dreaded thoughts of you and the many sleepless
Nights are testimony to my mental torture,
By the time you read this, I’ll be
Long gone, to the land of the unknown,
Maybe I’ll meet you again…